This Is the Day the Lord Has Made

Brendan Murphy on July 7, 2020

Almost four months into the COVID-19 world, I have increasingly wondered why I feel so weird. I don’t mean physically; thankfully, despite a couple of exposures to the coronavirus along the way, I have so far dodged it. I mean existentially weird: frustrated, sad, vertiginous, displaced…sometimes in a cycle of all four plus several other feelings all within the span of an hour. I was greatly helped in my understanding this past week when my good friend and brilliant priest, the Rev. Mary Vano, shared with me her podcast, “J.O.Y.”  Mary interviewed fellow priest and life coach Marna Franson, who offered several helpful insights into our present condition.  


First, Marna points out, in our regular, non-COVID lives, many of us step out of our homes each day into different activities: work, recreation, volunteerism, and more. Each time we step into an activity, we also step into a different persona. We become, for a little while, “work me,” or “church me,” or “school me.” Each persona moves through the world a bit differently from all the others, and each gives us a break from the “me” who resides at home. We need that blessed variety, but now, with virtually everything happening — virtually! — in the home, the activities all still occur, but we never get the chance to change personas. We do everything as “at home me,” and we become exhausted with ourselves. We become for ourselves that college roommate we couldn’t wait to get away from on spring break…and yet the break never comes.


Second, Marna Franson shares an insight from psychologist Martha Beck who makes a crucial distinction between “clean pain” and “dirty pain.” Clean pain is the pain caused by an objective event itself, such as the coronavirus. Clean pain is the physical symptoms of having the virus, the anxiety caused by potentially contracting the virus, the loss of work, or concern for aged family and friends. Dirty pain, by contrast, is the overlay of meaning we place on that pain. For example, dirty pain is when one feels like a terrible child because she cannot go and visit her mother in the retirement center. Dirty pain is when one self-indicts for losing one’s temper as the four walls of the house seem to crowd in.  Dirty pain is almost always misplaced. It isn’t actual. It is a story we tell to make sense of the clean pain, but it is a debilitating and untrue story. Dirty pain simply makes us feel miserable on top of having to manage the unavoidable clean pain in our lives.


So, how do we alleviate dirty pain so we can constructively and healthfully address clean pain? I have two suggestions; and the first is, again, from my friend Mary Vano. First, when my college-student son was sent home along with all other students mid-spring, his university graciously allowed him to take his spring courses for credit only. The university recognized that these are bizarre and uniquely trying times, and striving for A’s might not be the most appropriate response in the circumstances. That seems to me not a bad mantra for everyday living right now. Give yourself the grace to live “for credit only” in this season. You will get frustrated; you will get sad; you will feel vertiginous and displaced; you will get tired of yourself, not to mention all those around you. And you will likely respond in ways you’d otherwise not. Be gracious to yourself. Don’t strive for an A in life right now. Take life for credit only.


And finally, I’ll share a life tactic that I’ve followed for years. Each morning when I awaken, I sit up, plant my feet on the floor, and in the three seconds before I rise, I quote Psalm 118, “This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”  I then recite to myself the important reminders of the day. These days, this includes, “We are enduring a global pandemic. Texas is presently at great risk. Stay in as much as possible. Wear a mask when you go out. And be generous to yourself and those around you.” These reminders, at the very outset of the day, reset my expectations and remind me that my day, my life, and my world are permeated by the God who loves me and walks with me each step of the way.


Be well, friends. 

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Worship Schedule for Sunday, July 12


This Sunday, July 12, our worship services will be live streamed. Please join us from your home for Holy Eucharist, Rite I, at 11 a.m.; La Santa Eucaristía, Rito II, a la 1:00 p.m.; and The Well, Celtic Eucharist, at 5 p.m. We will not worship in-person this week due to COVID-19 conditions in Houston.

We also encourage parishioners to watch together on Facebook Live, where a Cathedral priest will be available to communicate with you during the service and take prayer requests, or on our website at the links above. Our Sunday formation offerings for kids and adults continue as scheduled with “This is My Story, This is My Song” at 10 a.m. on Zoom, and “Dean’s Hour Summer Matinee” at 2 p.m. on Facebook Live. We will monitor conditions weekly, and as soon as we are able to return to in-person worship, we will do so.

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Virtual Summer Place Next Sunday, July 19

Brew up some coffee, grab a donut and crank up the Zoom! On July 19 at 10 a.m., you’re invited to a relaxed Virtual Summer Place. Join fellow parishioners in coffee-hour conversation for an informal check-in and renewed connection. Using Zoom’s breakout features, we’ll have an opportunity to visit with both familiar and new faces to learn what’s going on in our church and in our lives. Mark your calendars for this “no reading required,” light-hearted community fellowship hosted by John Flanagan and the Mission and Ministry Committee of the Vestry. For the link to join the conversation, contact Christy Orman at var u2075414117=”corman”; var h892079415=”christchurchcathedral.org”;var linktext=u2075414117+’@’+h892079415;h892079415=”christchurchcathedral.org”;document.write(‘‘ + linktext + ‘‘); .
 

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Supporting the Cathedral

Even as we worship from home, the Cathedral is engaged in ministry. Our pastoral care, outreach, worship, and program ministries of the Cathedral carry on, and supporting Cathedral ministries is as important as ever. You can make your offering in any of these ways:  

  • Visit the Cathedral Give page to find out the many ways you can support our church

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Grace and Peace,

The Very Reverend Barkley Thompson, Dean